Thanksgiving is probably my favorite holiday. Its a time to be with family and stop and realize how blessed we are, that there is so much stuff we have to be thankful for - that makes me really happy. Also there is not all of the stress of presents that Christmas brings.
This Thanksgiving I got to see all of my siblings, which was wonderful. And I helped my mom cook, which is always fun. It was a really wonderful time - the food was amazing and it was good to be home.
happy (late) turkey day
Sarah
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
You're in it right now, aren't you?
My grandmother passed away.
It has been very hard on me. At first I really wanted to be strong and mature, and logical. Telling people that it was a good thing, that she didn't suffer, that she lived a long life - that I was happy God took her from her pain. But I have come to realize, however true those things may be, she was my Mimi and she meant a lot to me. I have come to realize that it's okay to cry and that I do need to grieve.
I feel like I am in a surreal state right now, she was the first person I have ever lost that was close to me. It is really weird to think about, and I am sure that when I go to her house, and am at the funeral it will hit me much harder, but I am hoping it will also bring a sense of closing. I feel like Andrew from Garden State, not that I am on anti-depressants by any means, but just that the world is moving around me and I don't know quite how to fit in anymore.
I want to keep from shutting down, I still need to function and go to my classes. It's just really hard, at times I feel like I have cried too much and then at times I feel like I haven't even cried at all. I feel like the Lord is really protecting me though, and comforting me. He has not left me by any means, only become stronger in my life now. He has given me so many people to cling to, my family, boyfriend, and my wonderful roommates.
If you haven't seen Garden State, go rent it.
Sarah
It has been very hard on me. At first I really wanted to be strong and mature, and logical. Telling people that it was a good thing, that she didn't suffer, that she lived a long life - that I was happy God took her from her pain. But I have come to realize, however true those things may be, she was my Mimi and she meant a lot to me. I have come to realize that it's okay to cry and that I do need to grieve.
I feel like I am in a surreal state right now, she was the first person I have ever lost that was close to me. It is really weird to think about, and I am sure that when I go to her house, and am at the funeral it will hit me much harder, but I am hoping it will also bring a sense of closing. I feel like Andrew from Garden State, not that I am on anti-depressants by any means, but just that the world is moving around me and I don't know quite how to fit in anymore.
I want to keep from shutting down, I still need to function and go to my classes. It's just really hard, at times I feel like I have cried too much and then at times I feel like I haven't even cried at all. I feel like the Lord is really protecting me though, and comforting me. He has not left me by any means, only become stronger in my life now. He has given me so many people to cling to, my family, boyfriend, and my wonderful roommates.
If you haven't seen Garden State, go rent it.
Sarah
Monday, November 5, 2007
nose piercing and family
I had been wanting to get my nose pierced for quite some time...but was too scared to actually go through with it. A few saturdays ago I went to the homecoming game (yay!) and afterwards spontaneously got my nose pierced lol. ...after all, it is sort of an unspoken rule that the art students at North Texas have their noses pierced.
It hurt really bad, but I am so glad I did it, and think it looks super cute (did I just say that?). Anyway, later that week I ended up seeing both my families (my parents divorced when I was younger.) They are very conservative and didn't take the nose piercing wonderfully, but it was good, and I think now they are realizing that they need to let go.
Apart from revealing my nose, it was really good to see the fam. I have missed them so much!
Sarah
It hurt really bad, but I am so glad I did it, and think it looks super cute (did I just say that?). Anyway, later that week I ended up seeing both my families (my parents divorced when I was younger.) They are very conservative and didn't take the nose piercing wonderfully, but it was good, and I think now they are realizing that they need to let go.
Apart from revealing my nose, it was really good to see the fam. I have missed them so much!
Sarah
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