I have been constantly working during the past two weeks, and I think it has really put a toll on me. I feel really worn down, and don't have much motivation right now. Even though I have been working so much, I really wonder if my boss appreciates all of the hard work I am putting in. I keep getting asked to come in when I am not scheduled, and then put on a guilt trip that I am letting her down (even though I have worked multiple times when I wasn't scheduled). On top of that I found out that she made some snide remarks about me to the cook last night. It wasn't anything huge, just wish that she would have come to me instead of telling the cook. I feel like I really will have to find another job if things don't improve, and I know I am not the only one that feels this way. However, I was really encouraged to see that I am only working two days next week, so hopefully that will give me some rest. Plus the first week of school isn't usually the hardest.
None of my roommates have been at the apartment for the last 3-4 days. So I have been a little lonely, but haven't really been able to go home because of how much I have been working. I think I am going to go shopping a little, probably not the best therapy, but I deserve it (and I still haven't spent my gift card).
I can't wait for classes to start, I think life will begin to fall into routine. And all of my friends will be back :)
Enjoy your last days of the break, and don't forget to buy your books!
Sarah
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
A breather, well sort of
Well finals came and went, and I actually survived my first semester at UNT. I wasn't overjoyed with my grades, but given the circumstances I think I did pretty well. I got a B in a class I was expecting an A in, but I also got an A in a class I knew I would get a B in, so I guess it balances out. I ended up getting a C, and have really been beating myself up over it - but I am finally realizing that all I can do is my best.
The C I got was in Spanish, which is ironically my minor. However the school I transfered from was very small and did not have a good spanish department. The foreign language department here is incredible - which also means its incredibly hard lol. I think my spanish grade next semester will be much better because I have a new motivation. I am going to study abroad in Spain for five weeks this summer!!! I am really excited about that. One of the reasons I transfered to UNT was their great study abroad options.
The holidays are always stressful for me. I guess they are stressful for a lot of people. A part of me wishes we didn't have a break between semesters, but I know I really would die if that were the case. During the breaks from school I feel like I am being pulled in a million directions, by all of my family, friends, and now work. And it always seems like no one appreciates the time I do spend with them, which makes me sad. More than half of the break has past and I don't know where I have been, here and there and no where really. I have had to work so much this break which has put an added stress to my life - but the money did help with christmas presents.
That reminds me...Santa was good to me :) I got a nice winter coat from my boyfriend, my family got me perfume, jewelry, a gift card, a crock pot, and a fondue cooker. Everyone did so much this year, just reminds me of how extremely blessed I am.
I am excited about next semester because I am working less, and taking less hours in school. I am really excited about the art history class I am taking too - art of ancient Rome, and Latin American art, they sound really exciting. I had the professor this past semester for my art appreciation class so I know his teaching style, granted it will probably be a little different when he is not teaching 300 students.
I went to another funeral recently (about a week ago). No one I really knew, it was my best friend's great grandmother. But I am really close to her family because I lived with them this past summer. I have come to this realization that as I get older death will become more and more a part of my life. Its weird to think about, but it also relieving to know that we aren't meant to live forever, and that there is a plan in all of this.
That also reminds me, I saw P.S. I love you last night with one of my roommates. It was really sad, but one of the best movies I have ever seen. This blog is very random and written in stream of consciousness sort of like that book by Faulkner, but not as creative or interesting. I guess most blogs are written like that though.
I feel like I have been stretched too thin this break. I haven't been reading my bible like I had wanted, I haven't been working out much either, and my room is a mess. Plus one of my roommates I haven't seen in about two weeks, which makes me really sad. I don't go in to work until around four today, so I think I am going to clean my room and do some more laundry.
This is an extremely long post, sorry...but I guess it makes up for the lack of posts this break.
Hope you had a wonderful christmas, and actually make a new year's resolution! (Mine is to only eat one sweet a day - I eat so many sweets now, and found out I have a cavity)
Sarah
The C I got was in Spanish, which is ironically my minor. However the school I transfered from was very small and did not have a good spanish department. The foreign language department here is incredible - which also means its incredibly hard lol. I think my spanish grade next semester will be much better because I have a new motivation. I am going to study abroad in Spain for five weeks this summer!!! I am really excited about that. One of the reasons I transfered to UNT was their great study abroad options.
The holidays are always stressful for me. I guess they are stressful for a lot of people. A part of me wishes we didn't have a break between semesters, but I know I really would die if that were the case. During the breaks from school I feel like I am being pulled in a million directions, by all of my family, friends, and now work. And it always seems like no one appreciates the time I do spend with them, which makes me sad. More than half of the break has past and I don't know where I have been, here and there and no where really. I have had to work so much this break which has put an added stress to my life - but the money did help with christmas presents.
That reminds me...Santa was good to me :) I got a nice winter coat from my boyfriend, my family got me perfume, jewelry, a gift card, a crock pot, and a fondue cooker. Everyone did so much this year, just reminds me of how extremely blessed I am.
I am excited about next semester because I am working less, and taking less hours in school. I am really excited about the art history class I am taking too - art of ancient Rome, and Latin American art, they sound really exciting. I had the professor this past semester for my art appreciation class so I know his teaching style, granted it will probably be a little different when he is not teaching 300 students.
I went to another funeral recently (about a week ago). No one I really knew, it was my best friend's great grandmother. But I am really close to her family because I lived with them this past summer. I have come to this realization that as I get older death will become more and more a part of my life. Its weird to think about, but it also relieving to know that we aren't meant to live forever, and that there is a plan in all of this.
That also reminds me, I saw P.S. I love you last night with one of my roommates. It was really sad, but one of the best movies I have ever seen. This blog is very random and written in stream of consciousness sort of like that book by Faulkner, but not as creative or interesting. I guess most blogs are written like that though.
I feel like I have been stretched too thin this break. I haven't been reading my bible like I had wanted, I haven't been working out much either, and my room is a mess. Plus one of my roommates I haven't seen in about two weeks, which makes me really sad. I don't go in to work until around four today, so I think I am going to clean my room and do some more laundry.
This is an extremely long post, sorry...but I guess it makes up for the lack of posts this break.
Hope you had a wonderful christmas, and actually make a new year's resolution! (Mine is to only eat one sweet a day - I eat so many sweets now, and found out I have a cavity)
Sarah
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